I bet you are all wondering why in the hell am I watching a clip from Center Stage? Well Number 1. because it is like the greatest movie of all time (yes I'm an ex dancer myself) and 2. because this describes to a T what I am going through right now. This girl, Jodi Sawyer, got a chosen to be apart of The American Ballet Academy which feeds right into the company. She had bad feet, didn't have the technique like the other girls, but she still no matter what worked her ass off to live out her dream. Call me simple minded, corny, laugh if you want, but this is me in two weeks, only for the past six months I've been in well, advertising boot camp, not ABA.
This girl had balls because honestly I would kick myself for not finding out if I made it into the American Ballet Company, HELLO. As much as it would kill me to hear them say, "We don't think this is a good fit for you," I would still want to hear it. I've spend the past six months in an intensive, stressful, mentally challenging environment. Unfortunately due to the economy, I don't think I have the luxury of telling them, "thank you for the opportunity, but I'm going to go be a bag lady on the streets of Manhattan." Although oddly enough that sounds like heaven right about now...hmmm...
Where do I find courage to say, "No no, don't say it, because if you say I have the job I may not have the courage to say no, and then I'll spend my best years working in a city I don't belong in on a brand I don't have a passion for leading me down a path that isn't New York City...and I'm better than that."
This girl had balls because honestly I would kick myself for not finding out if I made it into the American Ballet Company, HELLO. As much as it would kill me to hear them say, "We don't think this is a good fit for you," I would still want to hear it. I've spend the past six months in an intensive, stressful, mentally challenging environment. Unfortunately due to the economy, I don't think I have the luxury of telling them, "thank you for the opportunity, but I'm going to go be a bag lady on the streets of Manhattan." Although oddly enough that sounds like heaven right about now...hmmm...
Where do I find courage to say, "No no, don't say it, because if you say I have the job I may not have the courage to say no, and then I'll spend my best years working in a city I don't belong in on a brand I don't have a passion for leading me down a path that isn't New York City...and I'm better than that."
I'm better than that, I'm better than that, I'm better than that....
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